Today, I spent hours poring over every major decision I have made in my life and critically questioned each of them. I have tried to be a person who lives without regret—everything happens for a reason is my motto. But, at times like these, I wonder if I should have taken college more seriously. I goofed off and skipped too many classes, which made my trip to graduation a longer one. What if I had taken the typical four years to get my Bachelors? Would I be the same person typing this blog post?
And, what if I chose Accounting or Computer Science as my major, which I had wanted to do when I was younger, rather than Education. Would I be a more successful person? Would I have my own home and a corner office with a view of the city? Would I be happier? Would I have more money? Does more money equal happiness? I love what I do—sometimes—but, there are days when I wish I had taken a more conventional path. Who grows up wanting to be a hall director anyway?
As I impatiently wait for the phone to ring with a job offer, or at least an invitation for an on-campus visit, I sadly wonder if I made the right decision. To assuage the stress and doubt, I try to remind myself that who I am today would never be if it was not for the mistakes, the challenges, the risks, and the crazy decision to postpone paying rent. To quote Batman, I guess I am the person I deserve, not the person I need or want to be.